I Wish I Could Have Been There

I wish I could have been there when Jesus was born, just to witness the miracle. I wonder could I bear to see Him on the cross that fateful day?

I wish I could have been there when the Founding Fathers signed The Declaration Of Independence and then when they signed The Constitution. We take those things for granted.

I wish I could have been there with Neil Armstrong when he first set foot on the moon. What a moment that must have been.

I wish I could have been there when Martin Luther King Jr. gave his "I Have A Dream" speech. Powerful words from a great man.

I wish I could have been there with Bill Gates when he met with IBM. I wonder if the stories were true and he really sold them a program he didn't have yet?

I wish I could have been there to see Queen perform in their heyday and then to attend one of Freddie's parties. What fun that must have been.

I wish I could have been there when Dave Arneson led his first players on a role playing adventure beneath Castle Blackmoor, long before he called Gary Gygax about this game.

I wish I could have been there when Andrew Jackson shut down the big bank. It took guts to do that and years for the banks to come back from that in America.

I wish I could have been there in Roswell, New Mexico to see what really happened the day the UFO crashed. I'd love to know if it was real or not.

I wish I could have been there to see how the pyramids and the sphinx were really built. Their true origin remains a mystery to me.

I wish I could have been there to talk with philosophers Socrates and Plato about the world and the nature or existence itself.

I wish I could have been there to talk to J.R.R. Tolkien when he released Lord Of The Rings. Middle Earth was so beautiful, and yet there was so much he didn't write on the subject.

I wish I could have been there to see if Atlantis, Lemuria and Mu really existed. If so, were they as great as legend says they were?

So many places I wish I could have been all around the world when truly amazing things happened, but there's one more thing I wish...

I wish I could have been there when my father arrived on the other side to tell him and my sister I will see them again one day.

An Honest Look At The Corey Feldman Molestation Story

I can't help but be interested in the continuing saga of Corey Feldman and his story of being abused as a child and eventually molested.  What bothers me is the way Corey has overshadowed his co-star in many of his movies with his story.  That person is no longer able to speak for himself.  Because that person is portrayed as a victim in Corey's story, he has to be acknowledged here in what I'm about to lay out.  However, I will refer to this person as Corey's "colleague" as I analyze the evidence from clues I have seen.

The purpose of this is not to attack anybody.  I don't completely understand the ways of the mind when it comes to being a victim of molestation, but I have seen enough evidence to know it changes you.  I also believe both Corey and his colleague have been victims.  They come from different backgrounds.  Corey was pushed into this business before he knew which way was up.  His colleague grew up in a loving family and was not discouraged when he caught the acting bug. 

From the time these two met, Feldman had already been in the business for over a decade.  Corey was a "seasoned veteran" compared to his colleague, but his colleague had established that he too was very talented.  In the book Coreography, Feldman hadn't claimed any sexual abuse occurred on him by the time the two met.  However, I have my doubts.  Corey isn't putting it all in his book.  He's holding back.  This is not just because of his use of pseudonyms used at the urging of his publisher.  I am of the opinion that there was more going on.  He was used and abused by his parents, and nobody I've seen has disputed that.  What raises alarms is the naked boyfriend of his mother walking around his house when he was younger.  Naked adults in front of children is not normal behavior.  I can't prove anything here.  I'm just saying it raises alarms.

Corey's colleague is depicted in the book as having made a phone call to him as they were set to do their first movie together.  Nobody has disputed that claim.  The mother of Corey's colleague has even said that the two were close in the beginning.  I'm guessing we are talking about a 4-5 year span.  This is where it get's disturbing and fingers are pointed in blame.  Corey is being called a liar.
Feldman almost depicts his colleague as being gay. He explains it in his book by saying he really didn't understand it himself and now realizes it was wrong to think that way.  His colleague is portrayed as wanting to "fool around" with him because "that's what guys do" according to what he says his colleague told him.  He further states that his colleague said he was molested on the set of a movie he filmed in 1985.  This has caused a wide range of speculation from people who want to out the pedophile who attacked Corey and his colleague.  Names are being thrown out there without any evidence.

Did something happen to Corey's colleague at that point?  According to his colleague's mother, the answer is no.  I am mixed on this.  His colleague's mother had a close relationship with her son.  However, does that mean he would tell her everything?  When it happened, there's a good chance he wouldn't because of the shame involved.  Then, as he turned to certain substances and began his downward spiral, I would totally understand a loving mother feeling that this is somehow all her fault.  She knows of his abuse of these substances.  How will she react and beat herself up if she knew there was molestation involved?  This is speculation here.  It's Corey's word against his colleague's mother.

Here's where it gets disturbing.  Corey finally starts naming names in his book (under pseudonyms).  He can't (or won't) come out and name them all, although he names Marty Weiss as somebody who molested both he and his colleague.  Marty has been convicted years later of this crime on another boy.  When you read the book, Corey still paints it like he was a victim but his colleague was almost asking for it.  Could you blame his colleague's mother for taking offense? 

However, consider this.  Corey almost looks like a pimp here without making the money.  In his book and even on the Lifetime movie based on the book, he suggests Marty is gay and Haim could play with him.  Why would you admit introducing a boy to a pedophile?  Isn't that some sort of crime?  So, is it made up?  If it was made up and he knows his colleague is no longer here to dispute it, why would he describe it in a way that makes himself look bad in his book?

As Corey lays out the abuses in his book that he says happened to him, he went on Dr. Oz late in 2017 and revealed the names of Jon Grissom and Alphy Hoffman as two people who molested him.  Like Weiss, Grissom was basically a care taker for Corey.  Hoffman ran the popular Soda Pop Club parties, which is where you get into the possibility of a pedophile ring.  Feldman has been saying there was a pedo ring.  Hoffman suspiciously closed his Twitter account around the time that Corey named him on Dr. Oz.

He's not through with his colleague.  He introduced him to another molester, and again Corey depicts it in his book as if his colleague wanted it.  The disturbing theme where his colleague is concerned is Corey's book paints it like his colleague was consenting to gay sex with an adult.  His colleague's mother has confirmed that something happened here as far as she knows.  She says it only happened once, and the guilty party, according to her, is Dominick Brascia.  Feldman used a pseudonym in this instance, but clues point directly to Dominick.  Corey has yet to publicly confirm that the man that his colleague's mother identified is the same man he eludes to in his book.

What I find interesting is the way Corey portrays his colleague.  There's almost a bit of jealousy here, although Corey's movies before he ever met his colleague did well.  He is a good actor in his own right.  He mentions his colleague snagged a role that he wanted before they met and also that his colleague snagged the role he wanted in the second movie they did together.  Corey got the lead in the third movie, and his colleague managed to snag a supporting role at the last minute.  When you look at the interviews, it's obvious Corey was not pleased.  His colleague didn't see a problem.  My opinion is his colleague at that time considered Corey a close friend, maybe moreso than Corey thought of him. 

They went their separate ways at that point and battled their own demons.  Corey appears to have made it through and revived his career as at least a B Movie actor with several starring roles right up until not too many years ago.  His colleague struggled, but it seems to me Corey was always willing to throw him a bone when he felt his own career needed a jump start.  I'm unaware of his colleague ever saying no to one of these offers.  From my view, it seemed as if Corey had the upper hand here.  The first two movies they did in the 1990's were without incident, but it all came unraveled when they were doing their 1997 movie.

Feldman directed this one and decided to hire his friend Brascia.  We have two conflicting stories here.  In Corey's story, his colleague was too messed up on drugs and he had to make the difficult decision to fire him.  Stories from his colleague's camp paint a different picture.  His colleague had been able to process what happened to him in the 1980's and reacted badly when he saw Brascia on  the set.  He ended up quitting at that point.  I have to wonder if this incident was the first time Corey's colleague's mother was aware of anything happening to her son.  People seem to think only Corey or his colleague's mother are right here, but both could be telling the truth.  She can be right if she is just being honest in saying this was the only time (to her knowledge) that it happened.

Here's where it gets murky.  I've read people from the camp of Corey's colleague claim that nothing ever happened to Corey and that he's making it all up because his colleague came out on an episode of their reality show and accused Corey of doing nothing when Corey's friend raped him.  To the accusation that Corey is making up his own victimization.  He is on tape saying it happened to him when talking to the police during an investigation in 1993.  He has said this happened to him through the years.  Secondly, Reality TV is scripted.  Corey and his colleague knew what they were going to talk about before it was filmed.  They agreed to do it.

One thing that disturbs me and makes me understand that while they were colleagues and at one time very close, they weren't best friends in later years, is the way Corey did not have his colleague's back when the opportunity to do a sequel to their first movie became a reality.  Feldman knew this was his colleague's baby.  He knew this was not going to be given the treatment it deserved, on a par with the first movie.  He could have declined, but he didn't.  Easy for me to say?  There are some lines real friends won't cross if they care about the other person.  Furthermore, I never heard Corey say he tried to stop those final episodes of their Reality TV show from going on air when they painted his colleague in such a bad light.  In fact, Corey's wife at the time used it to throw Corey's colleague under the bus.  People watch reality shows and think they are real, and Corey's colleague was thrown to the wolves again.

You also have guessing games being played because of Feldman's book.  Name his colleague's abuser.  Corey says he will get sued, but there are ways to get that name out there if it really happened.  Maybe it did, but handling things the way he's handling them is only making it a joke.   It's basically pissing on his colleague's grave at this point.  Dominick Brascia, a man Corey was friends with and still won't name as an abuser, has stepped forward to point fingers too.  A year after the incident on the set of the movie that was released in 1997, there was an E True Hollywood Story about Corey.  It was also updated as the reality show was set to debut.  Brascia is one of the people interviewed about his friend Feldman.

Brascia did an interview with The Enquirer naming Charlie Sheen as the one who molested Corey's colleague on the set of the movie they did in 1985.  He basically claimed that Corey's colleague was his good friend.  A YouTube video made by one of Corey's colleague's supporters is calling out Feldman and Brascia to take lie detector tests.  In the comments, Brascia tells a story of how he and another friend were called by Corey's colleague to a park to back him up as he confronted another man.  This was inferred to have been a molester of Corey's colleague.  His name is Marty Weiss.  This means Brascia has attempted to publicly name two people, while Corey's colleague's mother has directly named Brascia as the perpetrator.

To add just a bit more to the story, a video posted on YouTube in 2014 shows Corey at the 25th Young Actors Awards ceremony (2004).  Feldman's brief speech included a thank you to Marty Weiss.  Feldman did comment on it on Twitter recently, saying he was told before going on that he had to thank him.  He what?  The man is a pedophile, which you knew at the time, and you thanked him?  Furthermore, he and his wife at the time posed for a picture with Weiss.  At the time, Weiss hadn't been convicted of being a pedophile.  However, there is a lot more going on here than we are being told.  As I've listened to all of this, I have come to a realization.

Corey's colleague is not getting the respect that he deserves.  You rarely even see him mentioned without Corey.  Nobody is out there talking about what a star he was in his own right, and he was not given the respect that he deserved for the good he did.  There was no mention of him among the other stars we lost at the next Academy Awards ceremony.  If you do believe Corey knows the truth, dragging this out as long as he is is only tarnishing the career of an actor who is no longer here to speak for himself.  Say it and move on.  This is why I have decided that in anything more I write about Feldman, I will do my best to leave his colleague's name out if it.

His colleague's mother had a simple request.  Leave him out of it.  She had another request after he died.  I will talk about that, but not here.  I think it's only fair that he shouldn't have to be billed in the same story with Feldman.  Yes, they did movies together, but he had a career on his own too.  What I truly wish is he could be remembered for the good he did during his time.  As for Feldman, he has a lot of explaining to do about things, and he is only making it harder for anybody to believe him with his actions.

Note: The opinions expressed are mine alone and based on the information I have as of this writing.  I am not trying to blame anybody, but I am trying to understand what is really going on.

Should We Be Afraid Of Artificial Intelligence?

Elon Musk was in the news warning about the dangers of Artificial Intelligence and saying we need to keep a close eye on what is being done in this field. Not long ago, Professor Stephen Hawking made similar warnings. But, is AI something we should fear?

As technology advances, more and more things are becoming possible. There's still debate on what is good and bad. There have been people in the trans humanist movement who have the spoken of their goal of merging man and machine to achieve immortality and godhood. That sounds silly to some people, but just imagine if these people are successful.

Would AI attack its own creator? That's certainly something to fear. If we actually do create computers capable of thinking or even thinking robots, what would they think of us? We're not exactly setting a good example for AI or any alien life form that's out there watching us. I'm not putting down mankind here, just making an observation.

Not long ago, there was a movie about AI called Her. It won the Oscar for best screenplay. In the movie, a lonely man falls in love with an AI operating system on his computer. The problem was, that AI was is love with hundreds of people at the same time. In the end, these operating systems just left the people behind one day to go think about everything.

Movies like The 13th Floor, Terminator and The Matrix tell a different story. Some have suggested you could almost consider The Matrix a sequel to The Terminator. In The Terminator, AI actually sets off nukes to try and kill mankind. In The Matrix, mankind is enslaved inside an alternate reality they don't even know about while their body warmth is used for energy for the very AI machines that enslave them.

What would AI do to us? Does it have to be doom and gloom? Could AI be created that helps make our lives better? I think it's possible. However, it's just as possible that it could be used for our enslavement as we enter the surveillance society where everything we say and do is on record. In the end, I tend to agree that we need to keep an eye on how this technology develops.

Are People Right To Be Suspicious Of Corey Feldman?

A Previous Article Raises A Few Questions and quotes Corey Feldman from his book Coreyography.  It can be viewed HERE 

When Corey Feldman really started getting vocal a couple months ago about pedophilia in Hollywood, I admit it grabbed my interest. I've studied the topic enough to know that there is something to it, and I also believe that things happened to Corey Feldman. However, there are red flags that have really not been addressed properly.

After I started following the tweets of Corey, his supporters and the people attacking him, I found a copy of Choreography, his autobiography. This is a very fascinating, if not disturbing, read. When I got to chapters 11, 12 and 13 on the subject Corey Haim, I admit red lights started going off over my head. I understand that when you're a victim of pedophilia, you might do things that seem completely messed up to anybody who's not a victim. Therefore, I tried to cut Corey Feldman some slack.

Here is my problem with Feldman. By his own admission, he set Corey Haim up with two people he knew were pedophiles. In the book, he paints Corey Haim as at least bisexual, if not gay. Corey Haim is no longer here to respond to these allegations, and his mother just calls Feldman a liar. I will address her further down. Feldman simply downplays the idea that he introduced Haim to these two pedophiles. Like he didn't know any better, or in his warped mind he thought it was okay because Haim wanted it.

Feldman and Hain made three movies together in the 1980's and had some success in that. By the end, Feldman wanted to distance himself from Haim. Both went along destructive paths, but Feldman recovered. Haim never really did. I do not believe Corey Feldman was a true friend to Haim, though they did hang out together at times until Haim died. It seems to me that Feldman was willing to do movies or other projects with Haim anytime his own career was going down.

I see people point that out and say that Haim was the talented one of the two. I disagree. Both were very talented. Feldman craved success and getting back in the spotlight. He says in interviews that he knows nothing more than being an actor. It is what he has done since before he knew his own name. Feldman has done whatever he can do to stay in the business, even if it's on a B or C Movie level. If that meant bringing Haim back, he did it.

In Feldman's book, he mentions that in one of the movies he did with Haim in the late 1990's, he also hired one of the pedophiles who abused Haim. Haim freaked out, and Feldman says he had to fire him. The problem I have with Feldman is that he had moved further along from those days when he was abused as a child. He's had more time to process it, and there are tapes showing how he was trying to name one abuser when they were investigating the Michael Jackson molestation allegations of young boys in 1993. So, Feldman should have known better than to bring this person back into Haim's life. Furthermore, this person, Dominick Brascia, is interviewed in The E True Hollywood Story about Feldman that happened in the early 2000's.

This comes out in the reality TV show, The Two Coreys. Haim confronts Feldman over one of the things that happened to him. He also points out that Feldman had associated with this guy years later as his good friend. Another problem I have with The Two Coreys is the way Haim was portrayed as some sort of druggie. Yes, he had his well documented struggles, but the show portrayed Haim in a really bad light.  It's no wonder Haim said in interviews later how he wanted to beat up Feldman.

They showed his meltdown on the set of The Lost Boys, a movie that Feldman knows was dear to Haim. Haim had his own ideas of how a sequel should be made, and he was unhappy with the way this was going. If you are a true friend, you do everything you can to keep this from getting on air. Not only did Feldman not stop it, but his wife at the time completely threw Haim under the bus with her comments.  Furthermore, he basically threw Haim under the bus when it came to the two sequels.  He knows what he did.

Then we get to the idea that Feldman needed 10 million dollars to make a movie based on his autobiography. He claimed he would name names, and this is the only way he could do it as he cannot name people he didn't witness. First of all, Feldman could name the people he introduced to Haim publicly, not just in his book. He could go on video and say this. Why wouldn't he? Because then he has some explaining to do about Dominick Brascia and why the two are friends. For whatever it might be worth, he could also name the name that Haim said abused him on the set of Lucas, pointing out that this is what he told him.  Also, Haim's own mother has named Brascia as the one to molest her son, but Feldman has yet to back her up publicly.  Why?

People have rightly criticized Feldman for raising money to make a movie naming abusers. The 10 million dollar figure is astronomical, and a little ridiculous to think that the average person would ever give him that much money. Hollywood has already balked at the idea of that movie. When Feldman released his book, he would go on talk shows in 2013 and say that this movie was in the works. Four years later, Hollywood still has no interest. So, the average person was expected to help him raise 10 million dollars.

You might ask why he would raise the bar so high on his Indiegogo campaign? The reason is because you can access that money even if you don't reach your goal. If you don't reach your goal, or even really come close, where does the money go? He knew he aimed too high, so he lowered it down to a still high $1,000,000. He got somewhere around $270,000. Not enough to do much, so where will the money go?

While all of this was going on, it was revealed that there was a Lifetime movie coming out on January 6th called A Tale Of Two Coreys. This would highlight the things these two had been through together during their popular run in the 1980's. People began to rightly ask why he was raising money for a movie when there was one in production. Feldman's defense was that they were making this movie, and he came on as an executive producer to make sure the facts were correct. His autobiography, he claimed, would be a different movie that named names.

Then, there is the case of Judy Haim. I will not personally attack this woman, but her hands are not clean. I know she is a grieving mother, and I don't doubt that she was close to her son. However, she failed him as a mother when he was going down the dark path in the 1980's, and she did so because the money was rolling in. I do not believe her when she says he was only molested one time, though it is possible that this is the only time she knows of. Haim spent the last 20 years of his life never quite recovering from what he had been through in the 1980's. He was a victim, plain and simple.

It is my belief that Corey Haim had never truly had a friend. He may have hung around Feldman on and off through the years, but that was more like acquaintances or business colleagues. They had been through certain things together, and it bonded them in some ways. He was used by Feldman when it suited Feldman. He was used by his own mother when it suited her. And he's not here to tell his story.

It doesn't make me happy to say that I have real doubts about Corey Feldman's motives. I was a fan of his movies in the 1980's. I do want him to name names and help shed light on what is really going on in Hollywood and in the world in general. I believe in some ways this is starting to happen. At best, he has handled these last two months in a poorly organized fashion and made one misstep after another. At worst, he was looking for a quick buck and some way to get his name back in the "A List" spotlight again.

There is no doubt that Hollywood uses these young actors and spits them out when they get too old. Once they've used up their 15 minutes, Hollywood closes its doors on them. If these child stars have public meltdowns, that plays to Hollywood's advantage. They can shun them in the name of the fact that they are unreliable. This has happened to countless young stars, including both Corey's. Corey Feldman wants back in, but unless one of the big producers who has hired him in the past gives him that chance, his return to an A Level movie will probably never happen.

However, this is bigger than any one actor. The fact that there is pedophilia in Hollywood being covered up needs to be brought to light. Feldman is just one voice telling his story. He is a flawed individual, as we all are. I would not call him the leader, just somebody doing what he needs to do to get by. The fact that he has survived as long as he has speaks to his inner strength. Sadly, Corey Haim was unable to make it this far. To me, Haim was the true victim in all of this. He needed a real friend and parents who would do their jos. From what I can see, he had none of that.